Time...

I hold the weight of this room... of the boy writing at his desk... of the girl who stuffs her face with food... I hold the weight of this room. I hold the weight of this room I hold a weight of the treasure and the weight of the miles... I hold the weight of this room. Yeas it is I who holds the weight of this room. I hold the weight of the DJ and the weight of the bill... I hold the weight of this room. I hold the weight of this room I hold the weight of the flags upon the wall... the weight of great minds... yeas I hold the weight of this room. I hold the weight of this room. the cabinet
whose doors won't stay shut... the tv shoved in the corner... it is I who holds the weight of this room. I hold the weight of this room... it is I who holds the moss... it is I who holds the weight of the dugout... I hold the weight of this room... the weight of the noise... the laughter, the sighs. yes I hold the weight of this room.

Time 03.03.04
Time endless time that doesn't continue... time is classic, it's wasted, it's held. Time is pressing. Time holds us back. Time is feared and loved. Time is ending. Not enough is said in time, not enough is heard or learned or experienced. There's so much more we could do with time. There's so much more we can accomplish. Time looked on is beautiful. We learn from looking back. So much time is spent. So much time is earned and taken.

L.

How to describe the tree standing alone in the distance beyond the yard past the fence past the branches and the leaves a tree is glowing by sunlight trying to reach the sky the bluest of blues still in all these words you could never see what I've seen though you think you do

Always afraid of what's next can't grab onto what I've left behind so little so late so few

I want to jump I want to scream into a crowd of waving hands still that could never satisfy I want to roll around getting lost in the chaos but that feeling couldn't last forever jump off a bridge into the noise but eventually that falling stops and here I am pointless doing it all again but I think I would I'd close my eyes lying in air with nothing to catch me not to sleep not to feel just to be in that I'd smile

All I 'll never say whys it so bad

Down trails forbidden secret crushes hidden the bouncing of a ball leaning against the wall in chances that we take lying naked in the lake a sip of the city to say something witty afraid to grab the rope not afraid to smoke looking at the sky up once house high a ticket in front of all few moments left to stall

Eventually here

It must have been the moonlight...

Missing the sun missing all the honest smiles the night almost done here again telling lies and the truth at the same time no more tic tac toe no more drums or dinosaurs pierced with ever lasting thoughts and the painful memories of metal sleepless nights bum puduhla bend over and take it like the man who's the man and you know why that is yes we all know child kiss me no more for this night I've fallen pirates and booties taste that fades this and that not enough gone so long now found once met time and again burning fire long ago swimming naked and still embarrassment sad no longer takes its claim can't forget sexy strawberries in a glass half empty a tin of emptiness

Pain in my shoe six years old a lie he says a cry she's dead in her head no more all is lost nothing there to begin with but a tainted smile no longer glowing losing its shine make up take up yet none no more the green is darkened to black and no longer can be seen the path broken taken away

Pleasant...

08.10.05
it'll all be over soon so why cry wasted tears going nowhere taking away more than nothing

08.12.05
I see my friends to smile to forget that there's nothing to smile about I look at their faces I look at strangers faces it's all just to pass the time and to fill in all the empty spaces that are worth nothing
The drums roll in and our mind is lost is what we feel pride what is our last memory dying for the ones we love wishing we could live hoping it'll all be over soon
It would take more than the pain you've caused more than the time I'll never have the words I've said more than you're willing to give
I never knew the innocence of a crush I always fell into darkened lust i never knew what it was to trust and to feel the love I once had
in a book now finished and so are we is our true past
it's hard to change what I've become when little by little it's all I know it's who I am
trees breeze and all the fleas shaggy hair hidden stare tiny hips forbidden lips and all else you do if you'd sing it would sting the depths of my soul yet with that sound makes my heart pound harder to hide what I've never felt in you in you in you all the same different enough few any guy like pleasant and you were forgotten