Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Phone Pics...


Lunch @ Sazerac.

Caela.

Caela Doctor.

Subway Eat Fresh.

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AJ.

Late Night @ Sharis.

This is my Eye.

Duh.

Cass.

Me.
Christmas after a night of Bowling.

Ice cream in the car, always a bad idea.

Little Elijah.
Gabriella and Caela.

Goggles.

My little helper.

Sleeping Angel.

Me and the girls.

Caela Bugga bugga.

Hello Kitty.

So Pretty.

Watering Can.

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Cheese.

Why do moms always take these pics.. idk but I do.

Sunshine.

My love.

Cae, Chlo, Gabba.
Yum.

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Glasses.

I see you.

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Chloe.

Tired Caela.

@ the mall.

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Mmm Ice Cream.

Messy Face.

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Little Joe.

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Kimo.

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Pic taken by Shanda.

Cousin Shanda xoxo.

They love falling asleep on car rides.

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Caela Sleeping, She loves dress up.

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Tinker Bell.
Princess.

Caela.

Caela Swinging.

Caela @ Park.
Align Center
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Melissa.

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Me & Meliss.

Cassy Tattoo.

Pic taken by Lisa.

Pic taken by Clyburn.

How we do.

Danae and Me.

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Sarai, Danae, and Me.

SMILE.

Dress up Time.

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MEOW.

Hello Kitty.

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Caela and Levi.

They grow so fast.

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Silly.

Dying Melissa's roots.

Elijah Babe.

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Fell asleep during lunch.

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Levi's Doggy Bed.

Eggs, Sausage, and Toast.. Caela's favorite.

Kristina and Me.

Pillow Pet.

Necklaces for Hemp Fest.

Cutest pups ever.

My fav.

Face paint.

Gettin ready.

At the pool.

Hello.

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At Melissa's.

At Chloe's.

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Caela's Big red chair.

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Kisses.

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Cassy did Caela's hair.

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Aj.

Gabriella.

Duke, Elijah, and Delilah.

Caela at Desiree's.

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Richard's bike.

At wild waves.

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Kimo.

LOVE.

Monday, August 2, 2010

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Born on the island of O'ahu.
My Birthday is in 2 days... I will be... OLD!!!
Ok..maybe 24 years young.
I want a haircut.

Painting Nails.



Humbow...Yum!

I'm glad to be anything other than you I'm happy with just being me I'm not too hot but not too cold I'm not too young but not too old I smile when I'm happy

Books for Caela...


The Secret Birthday Message By: Eric Carle
What Baby Wants By: Phyllis Root

I Love You Forever By: Robert Munsch

Ladybug Ladybug By: Ruth Brown

The Grouchy Ladybug By: Eric Carle

Swish, Swish, Who's This? By: Davis

Mother Goose
Love Bug By: Sandra Magsamen

Hands Are Not for Hitting By: Martine Agassi
ABC By: Dr. Seuss

Corduroy By: Don Freeman

Counting Kisses By: Karen Katz

Fish Kisses By: Marianne Richmond

Is now reading...

Thoughts: I've been looking for love.. I need to love myself and be happy with me

What to remember, what to forget, what to learn

Pray

I guess I finally had my wake up call, my break down, my realization that I couldn't do this alone. For so long I convinced myself I can handle everything, fix everything, I can put the pieces back together and be just fine. After all I believe that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I didn't fix anything I spent all my time and efforts in trying to cover up and hide everything. The pain I didn't know how to deal with just became and unseen part of me. My only comfort was my thoughts reminding me "I'm OK" when I never was. Now I'm left socially awkward and left with many fears. I don't want to be this person I've become.. This is not the life I want to live. There's so much more inside of me waiting to be seen and heard. I don't want to be fake, I don't want to be who I think others want me to be. I wish changes happened over night but that's not always the case. I'm stronger than I know, I'm smarter than I know. I should have never been afraid to take off my jacket.. afraid to speak.. afraid to ask questions.. I can never get my childhood back. The little memories that I keep are the good ones. The little blessings here and there. But like many others mostly there's just a BLANK.

Proud mom, Beautiful,Creative, Loving, Smart, Funny at times, Giving, Caring...